Ive had my second relationship and second break up. I know from the first experience how long I take to deal with it. The first one took me about 3 years. It was awful to go through the surge of helplessness repeatedly.
So when i got into my second relationship, I was skeptical. All that I was most concerned about was it should not break up. But this also was not meant to be. The cracks came very early and again I struggled, overriding my feelings, my ego just to make it work. My stupid heart would not let me have it any other way. Then the inevitable happened- I was dumped.
So there I was back to square one, thinking day and night about it, going through bouts of crying, feeling the pain literally in my heart. I spent hours on the facebook profile eager to know what was going on in my ex's life- So many questions- was he already seeing someone, thoughts of him having moved on already.
Visiting his page was more important to me than visiting mine. I realized that it was almost an obsession with me. Thats when I decided to work towards weaning myself away from this . Ive now managed to do this for 3 days much to my relief and its not been too difficult. Have to confess though that I have an urge today which Im controlling. But Im fine if I visit it once in while as thats a better way of gradually moving to a phase of complete disinterest.
While Ive finally deleted all his messages to me on phone, Im waiting for him to take back the money thats due to him to remove his contact nos as well from my phone.
But what Im still toying with is removing him completely from my facebook. This morning I had a very strong desire to do that. But somehow didnt quite get down to it because of work.
I wonder what I will do eventually.
One thing is certain, Im gradually becoming good at the art of getting over being dumped. At this moment the thought going through me is that its not such a bad thing to get dumped. Lots of worse things happen in this world. ...It was just a passing thought!!..
